I think I ended up turning my best friend bi, and I really like her. Best thing is that she likes me too! Broke up with Kyle, so there's nothing in the way of this. ^^ Life is soooooo sweet right now...

I'm at the Apple Store, getting my iPod fixed and the mall is about to close D: That's not cool! So yeah, awesomesauce.....gonna go now, bye bye!

OC Meme

If you do Chose 10 of your OC's. Or ten of your favorite people. (Like friends, family, celebreties. Anyone you think is cool.) But you can't choose yourself.

1: Seymour
2: Cassandra
3: Alex
4: Adam
5: Elizabeth
6: Nathaniel
7: Diana
8: Rebecca
9: Daniel
10: Richard

1) 4 (Adam) invites 3 (Alex) and 8 (Rebecca) to dinner at their house. What happens?
A) Well....Alex watches Adam pick fights with Rebecca....not a pretty sight....

2) 9 (Daniel) tries to get 5 (Elizabeth) to go to a strip club.
A) HA! Elizabeth would have a hard time pretending she doesn't like the show XD

3) You need to stay at a friend’s house for the night. Do you choose 1 (Seymour) or 6(Nathaniel)?
A) Nathaniel, definitely XD

4) 2 (Cass) and 7 (Diana) are making out. 10 (Richard) walks in...Their reaction?
A) Lol Cass and Diana?! Richard would be devastated, but he knows he would want to join >_> Avoid temptation, Richard!

5) 3 (Alex) falls in love with 6 (Nathaniel). 8 (Rebecca) is jealous. What happens?
A) Rebecca would try to play it off like she's fine, but who knows whose place she wants to be in...

6) 4 (Adam) jumps you in a dark alleyway. Who comes to your rescue? 10 (Richard), 2 (Cass) or 7 (Diana)?
A) Richard would because he has something to prove lol

7) 1 (Seymour) decides to start a cooking show. 15 minutes later what is happening?
A) The set is destroyed, the food is vaporized, and the studio audience has mysteriously disappeared...

8) 5 (Elizabeth) is in a car crash and is critically injured. What does 9 (Daniel) do?
A) Takes her back to the strip club to mend her soul better than any medicine could XDDDD

9) 3 (Alex) has to marry either 8 (Rebecca), 4 (Adam) or 9 (Daniel). Who do they chose?
A) She would marry Rebecca for the sole fact that she's a girl. She and guys (aside from her brother) don't really mix.

10) 7 (Diana) kidnaps 2 (Cass) and demands something from 5 (Elizabeth) for 2's (Cass's) release. What is it?
A) SHE DEMANDS RICHARD!!!

11) You get to meet either 1 (Seymour) or 6 (Nathaniel). Who do you chose?
A) Nathaniel!!!

12) 10 (Richard) challenges 4 (Adam) to a chariot race. Why?
A) God only knows lol

13) Everyone gangs up on 3 (Alex). Does 3 (Alex) have a chance in hell?
A) FUCK YES!!!

14) Everyone is invited to 2 (Cass) and 10 (Richard) wedding except for 8 (Rebecca). How do they react?
A) In this weird AU (lol), it's obvious why she wasn't invited, so who cares?

15) Why is 6 (Nathaniel) afraid of 7 (Diana)?
A) Because of that one traumatizing night...lol

16) 10 (Richard) gathers everyone around to tell them a fairy tale. How does it go?
A) It goes well...kinda. Most end up bored, but some like his storytelling.

17) 1 (Seymour) arrives late for 2 (Cass) and 10's (Richard's) wedding. What happens? And why are they late?
A) Nothing really happens, and he was probably late because the man is blind.

18) 5 (Elizabeth) and 9 (Daniel) get roaring drunk and end up at your house. What happens?
A) I have to cover my ears because Elizabeth might make the worst mistake of her life...

19) 3 (Alex), 8 (Rebecca), 6 (Nathaniel) and 4 (Adam) all go to the zoo for 8's (Rebecca's) birthday party. How does it go? What presents do they get 8 (Rebecca)?
A) It goes badly, and Rebecca ends up getting nothing XP

20) Everyone gets together and start protesting something outside of your house. What are they protesting? What do you do?
A) They protest against each other and start competing against each other for no reason.

21) 9 (Daniel) murders 2 (Cass) best friend. What does 2 (Cass) do to get back at them?
A) She kills him. Period.

22) 6 (Nathaniel) and 1 (Seymour) are in mortal danger. Only one of them can survive. Does 6 (Nathaniel) save themself or 1 (Seymour)?
A) He saves himself XD

23) Which one of them is most likely to fail at life?
A) Seymour

24) 5 (Elizabeth) is trapped in a cave. 10 (Richard) comes to rescue them. What happens?
A) She gets out, though she did most of the work lol

25) 3 (Alex) starts a day camp. What happens?
A) Rofl, all the children would be killed if that were to ever happen.

26) 4 (Adam), 6 (Nathaniel), and 7 (Diana) are doing the Hokey-Pokey. 8 (Rebecca) walks in.What happens?
A) She would be very appalled and disgusted....wait, are we talking about the dance?

27) 1 (Seymour) starts to write a fan-fiction where 9 (Daniel) and 10 (Richard) are going out. What is 2's (Cass's) reaction?
A) She's surprised he knows what he's writing, considering he's blind.

28) 7 (Diana) makes an apple pie. Is it any good?
A) Sure...

29) 8 (Rebecca) and 3 (Alex) go camping. For some reason they forget to bring any food. What do they do?
A) Alex tries to kill Rebecca many times.

30) While they are camping, they run into The Blair Witch. What do they do? (If you haven't seen that movie pretend they ran into the Bogyman or something like that instead.)
A) They kick his ass lol.

31) The quiz is over. What does everyone go to do now?
A) Whatever they feel like doing and call it a day.

Today I watch the MJ memorial service, or most of it at least. It was really sad, looking back on it. Usher performed and he started crying after he touched MJ's casket >< And then, Paris was all sad and the only one of his kids who looked like she gave a damn that the man was dead, unlike Prince I and Blanket :/ That kinda pissed me off, though I was close to crying when I saw Paris cry. At least she knew him enough to love him, as some are not as lucky. In any event, I've been on a MJ binge, meaning I've been jamming to his old stuff, particularly Rock with You. (The drums to that song are actually kinda simple XD If only I had drums to to try to play the song with ><) MJ was awesome before all that pedophile shit and accusations. I mean, what black man you know can dance dressed in shiny silver while dancing in one spot with a green strobe light in the background?

In other news, I've been printing out sheet music for piano. Lost Paintings from Castlevania: Symphony of the Night is a bitch, but that's only because my piano playing is nowhere near pro lol Just printed out Minish Cap music, and yesterday I printed out Final Fantasy music, but it was the early stuff, like IV and VI XD The Decisive Battle is going to be a bitch.

Also, going to counseling tomorrow. I just hope it doesn't rain like it did when I first went last time. It fucking poured that day >

Well, I'm trying to write fanfiction and I suddenly had the urge to blog so here's what has happened while I wasn't blogging:

-I passed the 9th grade.
-I went to the emergency room (upon my insistence) for trying to hurt myself. (Saw psychiatrist at work, so I'll probably do that for a living XD)
-I went to counseling (the lady was kinda crazy but I like her XD)
-I found out I had a godmother (thanks for not telling me, mom =_=)
-Just yesterday, I went to my godmother's cook out and got this huge-ass mosquito bite on my arm near my elbow ><

And that's all for now. Now, I just have to wait for Kai to judge me about the second and third things, cuz I know she will >_>.....

I went to Six Flags NE today with people from school and I was with Kenyah, Kyle, and this adorable Asian junior Jackson (his last name is Chan, so sometimes we call him Jackie Chan XD) - oh how I love him so! (It sucks that I'll probably only see him next year if he goes to the Six Flags trip lol)

But anyway, we went and got there around 10 this morning (an hour later than last year) and we went on Bizzaro, the new ride there - it's basically the Superman ride, but with purple everywhere and flames XDD

After that we went on the Mind Eraser, ate lunch, and went on this water ride >< It was hilarious!!! (I forgot the name of it, gomen ><) I had to wear Kyle's sweater so that I would get that wet lol (I was wearing two shirts but they're rather thin). So all for of us (plus these three other white chicks) go on and it starts out with a ramp that you go up and then there's a descent, but it's not even a drop at first. (Kyle hates getting wet, so he expected a huge drop after the ramp, but there was none, so he had this goofy look on his face XDD And the whole time, there was this one girl who was like "I don't want to get wet!!" and Kyle was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" but they didn't even say anything and kept talking lol) Very soon, though, there is a descent, and you get splashed against rapids/currents-water depending on which side your on. The raft/boat thing spins, so riding it is always different. Then there are two waterfalls that will get you wet, more rapids/currents-water splashing you, and that's basically it. It may seem boring, but it was lots of fun - plus there was barely a line XD All four of us went on the ride three time total. First time, Kyle got mega soaked (lmao), second time, Kenyah got wet and Jackson got soaked, and the last time, I got wet/soaked (a mixture of both XDD).

After that, we went on Flashback (the second half is boring ><) did this ride that goes up on a ramp and goes in a half circle and drops (there's a big-ass splash, which is the only reason people go on it. Kenyah's face was drenched, and yet I stayed dry lmao), did Bumper Cars (lol), and went on Batman. We didn't go to the water park or anything, but we still had fun.

Kyle and I were more affectionate than usual, which I liked. Usually, I'm hesitant of doing that kind of thing in public (since, you know, PDA and all), but today, I didn't really care.

Once we were on the bus, I decided to sleep, and Kyle draped his sweater over me like a blanket and let me use him as a pillow XD I just wanted to stay in his arms the whole time and never get off the bus >< But I'm happy with the time we spent together today ^^

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to study for my final DX

After youth group today, Kyle came to my house, and we were in my room and he gave me a peck on the lips and then I started kissing him and then we liked it and then my mom saw us and after he left, she gave me the talk....THE FUCKING TALK....the very talk I was hoping to avoid since I was in elementary school...god, I hate myself sometimes...actually, I hate myself a lot of the time. Well, isn't that just great?

Rather bored atm, so went back to the apple store. (I love these keyboards now XDDD) Talked to Kyle finally but we didn't talk about what I was mad about earlier, since that would be counterproductive on my part. My finger is really numb....KAI HELP ME!!!!!! I CAN'T TYPE PROPERLY AT ALL!!!!! I MUST HAVE MY MIDDLE FINGER BACK!!!!!!

I wanted two shirts at hot topic, but i couldn't afford them both, let alone one >< I bought the power up energy drink and some candy though XDDD I'll be all jittery later XDDD

And also, my mom and aunt found me, so I guess I'll be on my way. Ja!!

Kyle and his friends are douches, and that kind of pisses me off right now....

But anyway, I have made it a tradition to enter the apple store and post things on LJ XDDDD I was with my cousin and then Kyle issues started to arise and I couldn't act normal with my cousin so I left her in the store we were in before. I was going to go to GameSpot (and Kyle just called me...oi....) and I saw the apple store and I was like why not XDDD So yeah, I'm about to leave now. Ja!

PS: The type of my middle finger is numb and i woke up that way. Kai, my mom doesn't know what to do, so I'm relying on you!!! I can't even type properly....

Sometimes, I wish I could just muster up the courage to stab myself in the arm with a knife and leave a huge gash with blood gushing out of me like water coming out of a fountain. I'm just sick an tired of everything and I don't know what to do. I haven't the drive to do anything, and I pretty much hate myself more than one can imagine. It's like what the point of living, you know? Don't worry, I'll endure the journey, but I can't guarantee I fuck myself up along the way.

Life kind of sucks at the moment, but it's whatever nowadays considering that life is always this way now; I've gotten used to it....I think. But anyway, life is really good when I see Kyle and other friends, and plus ANIMEBOSTON IS THIS WEEK!!!! How fucking cool is that??? Too bad I have school on Friday and I have to be at a contest for machine science in the morning on Saturday XP But whatever, because I'm gonna have a blast!!

And today, Kyle came to my house and he gave me Skullcandy headphones XD Even though they're pink, I love them anyway ^^ He's so sweet sometimes lol And here I was, thinking that the majority of guys that I talked to weren't sweet and not totally perverted XDDD Sorry for going all mushy and whatnot, but I really like him. He can be a dick sometimes, but that's not always the real him. When he's with me, he shows me a softer side to him, and I never thought that he had it in him to tell the truth lol XD He's one of the reasons life is...livable, for the lack of a better word.

Oh yes, and DRUMMING IS SUPERFUCKINGHILARIOUSLYSTUPENDOUSLYBLEEPINGAWESOMESAUCE!!!!!! Playing around with the drum set at school is just so fun XD Thanks BLA for having Band ^^ Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to listen to Zettai Unmei Mokushiroku from Revolutionary Girl Utena with my new Headphones (the drums in this song are the best eva!!!!)

I will be gone for a few days. Most of my vacation will be spent on a retreat with my youth group from my church, which means no tech (unless I put Christian music on my iPod, which I don't feel like doing) for four days. I'll survive, since I have to bring my sketchbook and my notebook (which I already use for drawing and writing purposes respectively) anyway. So, yeah, get used to not talking to me, alright? ^^ Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to continue to be cold in my room....all alone.... >

For some reason, I've been feeling so angry/depressed >< I don't know why, but these feelings just keep coming back. It annoys me. I mean, I think I know why (clearly contradicting my previous statement about not knowing), and it makes me think "Wow, I'm such an attention whore." It's like I have high expectations of my boyfriend because of things I've seen/heard as a kid up until now. I always expected things to be so cliche and happy, but then things happened to contradict everything I thought I knew. Because of that, my feelings are messing with me, and I hate it. I don't know what to do about it though. Like, what *can* I do? I never wanted to be the clingy bitchy girlfriend that I'm starting to turn into. It makes me hate myself so much, as if I don't have enough to worry about. I just don't know how to turn myself around.

Well, would you look at that? Such a great way to start off another year of life, huh?

Lol, in the midst of my boredom, I ended up going to the court-records.net forums (Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney site). I don't usually go there, I just remembered the site to day XD So I'm looking through the forums and I found a thread of about a yuri pairing. Not only did that get me in a yuri mood, but I also found the funniest sig in the world XD Mia, thank you for being so gifted XD

I've decided who I'm cosplaying as.....I'll give you a hint: I said I would cosplay as her first.....still don't got it? Fine, another hint:

ANTHY HIMEMIYA!!!!!!!!!!!

Shit, I just gave it away, huh? Lol, anywho, I'm cosplaying as Anthy - who wears a dress - and this time, its final. Yeah, on Saturday, May 23rd, I'm going to spend the whole day in a dress...god, do I know what I'm doing? No one will let me live this down....but anyway, I have to get to work on that dress....god, i'm fucked. But I'll see what I can get done. I mean the easiest part of cosplaying as Anthy is the red dot on her head lol XD Can anyone say Sharpie? Lol, but yeah, I need to find a wig and get contacts....I wonder if my mom will assist me....

So yeah, there you go! I wonder how many Anthy's there will be at the con....

My boyfriend (Kyle) and Kenyah were at my house for a few hours. It was fun, and Kyle got his ass kicked XD His mom came half an hour early, but we still had fun XD

My mother is the most biased person I have ever known. It makes me wonder how she can continue to live life as if nothing is wrong.

Hello hello XD V-day was yesterday, and I actually had lots of fun XD Hung out with my friend Kenyah and my boyfriend for a while, then went to this show with my boyfriend and his father. I really like his father, he's awesome XD That's all really, I don't want to do *too* in depth with my day ;)

So yeah...I don't really use my lj much anymore lol But I had two dreams recently, which scared me lots. Once, I was dreaming that I was in school, and it was rather empty. I can't establish what time of day it was because for some reason, the background would shaded red...weird XP So one of my friends pulls me to the side and suddenly grabs me from behind and says that she likes me...and by this time, I'm feeling some rather strange sensations (yeah, *those* kinds of sensations). She doesn't want me to be with my boyfriend, and somewhere along the lines, my neck felt weird (yeah, "weird"). Then as if I were watching a butchered 90s anime dub, the scene suddenly skips to me, my friend, and my boyfriend in a hallway near the cafeteria. My boyfriend and I show affection, and my friend gets mad and she runs to the band room that's near by and hides under the band teacher's desk....which was up against the wall with the windows - that's not where it belongs! I tried to get her out of her hiding spot, and that's where the dream stopped. Weird, right? The friend in my dream, I would never think of going out with her ever! XP

The next dream was about a random classmate and I. She's in two of my classes, and I wouldn't say we're friends since we don't talk to each other often. The dream started with us making out. Period. Suddenly, she was girlfriend. We went somewhere, and made our status known, but that was it. My boyfriend wasn't in the dream at all. This one scared me...

Now, what I want to know is why I had these dreams in the first place and why they both included me and another girl doing something sexual in some way, shape, or form....god what is wrong with me? Seriously, they were just weird XP

So I signed up for this newsletter group thingy at my school, and now I get stuff in the mail about summer jobs, volunteering, and the like. I found this awesome job that pays very well. Like $175 well. Now, this would get in the way of me going to camp if I wanted to go again, which I do. But if I decide to get the job, not only can I save up for the graduation trip Kai and I planned out (sort of <_<), I can also spend it on shit that I would want! I really want to do this, but there are other things that I would want to do instead of it XP Eh, this sucks DX